You know when You have Thoughts and then those Thoughts keep going…

It’s one of those things I have started to wonder about, now that I’m getting into the second half of the first year of a serious relationship. You know, wonder about the future, wonder how long the giggly honeymoon phase lasts, wonder if this will really kick off or is something else going to come up, and wonder about that pesky L-word. Some people take the idea very seriously, while others just let the feelings and the time flow.

I usually consider myself as the latter choice, because I don’t believe allowing myself to stress/overthink emotions is something practical or even necessary to do. You feel what you feel and just go from there, right? On the flip side, I’m older now; any relationships/flings/romances/relations I had in the past were from a time where I was younger, less mature, less practical, less serious. I let by-gones be by-gones and I never held on to anything with serious intentions. I always told myself that if things didn’t work out, move on to something else.

I still think that for many things now, although I have learned to put more serious and focused work on things that matter NOW. My career attempts, for example, is a goal I feel very strongly towards, now that I have found a field I enjoy and desire to develop within. Quite frankly, I almost stumbled on the idea by sheer chance, but I wouldn’t change the moment for anything else. I also take living and caring for myself much more seriously; I have change my dietary menu (vegetarian), I have learned to shop and save with or without coupons (Aldi’s and Costco also helps), I have learned to take care of bills, charges, taxes, making appointment, tending to car maintenance, fixing things in the home, etc. I have learned to live like a proper adult and take responsibilities as expected, so in that aspect, I consider myself doing a job well done!

*pat on the back*

Back to my original thought, the whole relationship factor. This time, after some flops in the past, I took a different route based on advice from a friend: online dating.

Whoa.

Anyways, I figured the worst that could happen is… well, a lot of things honestly, but I went ahead and chanced it. After some trials and fails, I landed a rather likable male who was suited according to my interests (omg he knows how to make conversation, omg he has a real career, omg he pays his own bills and owns a car….), and 6+ months later, it appears to still be working out pretty successfully. I like this guy. A lot, probably.

So that L-word. I went around and ask some friends when they started dropping it to their significant others and the average result I got was 4-5 months into the relationship. I questioned my findings and pondered on people’s desire to say the word with the right meaning behind it. I was curious what made people make the change from like to love, and I listened to stories of newfound loves and tragic romances (typically not by choice). I, then, took a look at myself and what I had going on.

I didn’t really come to a solid conclusion on myself, but I know what I have going on is something special and quite frankly, rather dear to me. I like where things are going and I am just going to keep it at that.

I don’t always eat your food out of stress, but when I do…

It’s true, I’m not that great of a blogger. I get easily distracted, I tend to start something and not finish it, I find something more exciting, or I’ll just get a fantastic idea, then it’ll will just totally die on me like a dried up earthworm on your sidewalk in the middle of the summer.

Image stolen from here: http://www.itlookslikeitsopen.com/2011/07/catch-worm-man.html

The Horror!

However, today, I’m looking forward to things. For one, it is the Gregorian calendar’s official first day of spring. Granted, in Pittsburgh, it’s still in the 30s and will probably snow later, but the SUN IS OUT! There is a blue sky! It’s nice to look at from the inside of your warmer home… Anyways, with spring in mind, I’m looking forward to many things this year, such as:

1) Farmer’s Markets

2) Attempts of small gardening (I’m talking little cups on the windowsill)

3) Bike riding (Haven’t done this in over 10 years)

4) Zoo (Haven’t been to the zoo since I was in high school!)

5) Arts Festivals (technically the big one in Pittsburgh isn’t until June, but I’m still excited!

6) BEING OUTSIDE WITH NO WINTER COAT, SCARF, AND GLOVES

Isn’t this exciting?! April better start picking up the pace here and giving us some temperatures above the 50/60 degree mark, along with some flowers and bright colors to look at. Nobody wants this winter weather nonsense anymore, yeah?

(I was going to post a “winter blues” picture, but most of the searches led to odd, anime-styled fanart and babies. My point wasn’t going to get across.)

In other news, I shall be going to Boston for the first time in my life this weekend. Am I totally stoked? Yes. Granted, I do have to spend one day at the PAX convention (the manfriend’s biggest excitement: This is what I’m talking about). I’m not super knowledgeable about video games (I tried playing a demo of Dead Space 3, and the manfriend had to hold the controller with me in my hands and push the right buttons for me; I got so stressed out, I started eating his pizza.)

Image stolen from here: http://gifatron.com/tag/crying-while-eating/

Tears. Food. Swings. This is usually how I react.

The other days can be spent sight seeing, but I’m pretty sure everything we do will be pretty awesome. It’s gonna get weird.

Image borrowed from here: http://www.braco.net/boston-massachusetts

Look at the strikingly beautiful city.

As for the actual PAX, who knows. It’ll be nerdy and creepy, I’m sure. There will be a lot of loud noises, flashy lights, excellent & terrible cosplay, hot girls that never touched a controller in her life, and probably these guys:

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This guy knows what he’s doing

I’m feeling pretty good about life this year though. Even if everything doesn’t work out completely, I’m confident that things WILL come together in the end. There’s something else happening today, but I’m not going to talk about it until I get a result out of it. I try not to be all superstitious, but I’m always afraid I’ll jinx myself. Either way, I’m staying confident and keeping my head up.

‘Til the next time, kids!

The Space

I’ve been working on the same easy project for months because either one, I didn’t have enough time to finish it in one go, or two, I was just simply never home. I live in a duplex with another friend and since my bedroom is entirely too small for me to do anything in it, I decided to make use of the basement by transforming it into a craft work station. Since it’s an older home with very little upkeep, there isn’t a whole lot I can do to begin with without having to spend money on things I obviously wouldn’t get to keep (since I’m renting), I decided to just work with what I had on hand.

When I first encountered this to do business

When I first encountered this to do business

P.S. All pictures are pretty awful. I have an iPhone with a slight mark in the camera lens, bear with me.

There are a set of poorly done shelves against the wall, which aren’t really fixable unless I take the whole thing apart and rebuild it, which in reality, if I hopefully only stay in this place for one more year, it’s not really worth the trouble. It does hold my crafts supplies and other materials well enough though, since I don’t have anything particularly heavy. I did start repainting the shelves with the paint that was already there, just to make it bearable to look at. There is an additional cupboard in the back-end of the section, which I will also repaint when it’s not negative degrees down there (C’mon spring!)

This is the up close, painted versus awful

This is the up close, painted versus awful

On top of all that, I got some free rugs from the boy, who had them leftover, and I got a sturdy small desk for $5 at the Construction Junction warehouse! All in all, working with what I had on hand has been going pretty smoothly for an amateur work station and definitely gives me better ideas for future spaces when I move. The best and worst part of what I ended up doing the desk made me ridiculously happy, and other people weren’t impressed. I came across some Hard Cover Mod Podge that is used for furniture, and decided ‘Why not just redo the surface of the desk with book pages and color pictures of inspirational things?’ I got some super cheap old books for a couple bucks at the PGH Creative Reuse Center and begun my project by tearing out pages after pages of things I liked.

Rip, rip, glue, rip

Rip, rip, glue, rip

This part took the longest because to apply the Mod Podge, it was recommended to do at least 5 layers with a 15-20 min break between each, wiped, sandpaper with super fine grit, wipe again, steel wool down, and wipe again. I finally did all of this last night, and it did take me a few hours to finish it up (as well as finishing BBC’s The Office Xmas special so I could move on with my life past Tim and Dawn). I’m pretty satisfied with the end results, especially for my first real desk I was able to play around with. Obviously in the future, I will look into getting a better looking one that has drawers, but I foresee this desk having a special place in my heart for quite some time.

Vintage finished Up close

 

I look forward to seeing what creations come out of this.

Aside

Brief Pieces on Media (Social, Televised, and Other)

I’m that guy that doesn’t watch television, or really very much movies, because I’m a jerk like that. Super snooty about it, actually.

Actually, no, that’s a lie (sort of). I don’t have any access to cable or digital television channels. The tv we got from a friend is analog, so I would have to go buy a digital conversion box to even get that work, and really… the roommate and I decided against it. She got Netflix to use and I use my work (library) to borrow anything I care to watch (currently BBC and Portlandia) or the boyfriend. We are champion money savers, I must say!

On the flip side, I do care to keep up with my social media (because why not?), so naturally I pay attention to what’s going on via Facebook, Twitter, Google Reader, WordPress, BuzzFeed, and general news stuff. No, this isn’t going to be a post about what I thought about the Oscars solely based on a couple videos and photographs I saw. That’s really not relevant enough to me.

[Spoiler alert: I did not find Seth McFarlane offensive because let’s be real. if you have watched any Family Guy or seen Ted, or watched those other not-very-good shows of his, you know what’s coming. Seth doesn’t do clean or even lightly offensive joking. He pushes, crosses and shoves way past the line. It’s what he does. This should not be surprising to anybody at all.]

The social media world on the internet fascinates me. We’re intrigued by it, want to be wanted by it, solely depend our daily mood by how big of a response we receive by it, and quite frankly, letting our worlds be dominated by it. It’s not really a terrible thing, although it could be destruction in some cases. Worst case scenarios are using only technology to communicate with people, and yet not communicating with people IRL at all. (Mm, check out that old school AOL lingo right there…) There is definitely  a certain dependency on the internet and technology, which ranges for all people, but the hardest part is not letting it control you.

Of course, most people who actively use the internet have a hard time coping with this. I have an iPhone, use a computer at work and at home, and been debating on saving up money for a tablet (much later on this year or the next), but my thoughts keep swinging back to the “Do I really need all of this?” It’s a weird transition from living your younger childhood days without technology, straight into your teenage years being completely dominated by it. As we all know, with technology comes social media and alternative ways to interact with people aside from face-to-face or even via phone conversation (the talking part, not the texting), and that’s the hardest part we have to remember doing just maybe 10-12 years ago. 

As all things change over time, we often forget the “old way” of doing things. Simple things like looking up directions using a map, or doing math in your head, or even just excess tools in the kitchen. Do we really need a quesadilla maker? I swear it’s fairly easy to do without this magical device.

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This thing must be magical if it cuts my 5 minutes into 4 minutes!

So, in regards to the “old way,” this shows that the younger generation (including myself as a person in her mid 20s) often forgets how to communicate with people how it used to be done. Face-to-face, telephone talk, letters (PENPALS anybody?! I had one of those!), and what have you. People used to meet each other by just going up to someone in the market after getting their morning whisky fix at the bar and saying “Hey, I like the way you handle those eggs in your wire basket.” 

Am I complaining about this? Actually, no. I rather enjoy the current waves of technology and what’s coming ahead for us. I do at times reprimand myself for forgetting to keep in touch with people in the “older” ways because I took the lazy route, and I do often question why I keep my Twitter account (keeping up with the news, right?), and I’m also fairly certain I have no real need for a tablet, but hey, this is 2013. What else are we supposed to fret over? First world problems, anyone?

Chances

It’s 2013 and honestly, I feel as if I have a lot of things to look forward to. This is the year that I wish to make an advancement in my company and hopefully end up with a new position that is truly worth working for. I am eternally grateful for the opportunities that my current position and location allows me to take advantage of, and even more so grateful for the support I receive. This is a company I would love to grow and develop my skills over a long run, and hopefully this will lead to greater things down the road.

It is a little strange, in that I would love to stay in my position and do the things I am doing, but since it’s very little money,

Write something good that happened to you every day

Write something good that happened to you every day

I know that I must move on further in order to make anything of myself. We live in the times where if you don’t have any internal connections and/or prove your worth by killing yourself to exhaustion, you better start liking the change in your pockets and the cheap ways to everything (which, admittedly, are neat to find when it comes by).

However, this isn’t a post about jobs or my company in particular, this is just a post about life and making the most of it. When a new year comes, it’s always exciting to think about the possibilities that will come your way. Will you take the chance or will you pass it up for something else?

Last year, I took a business-oriented purpose and started a MeetUp group in order to attract a larger audience of people in order to increase attendance for my work’s programs. Now, MeetUp is a website whose intentions are to allow people to meet and hang out based on similar interests, and make friends in an alternative way (via internet). It’s not exactly uncommon for people with more business intentions to take advantage of this though, as you are generally

giving people an opportunity to explore something new (and my promoted programs are typically free, so everybody wins), but it somewhat takes away from the social aspects of the group. I didn’t really explore the possibilities of really getting to know people in my group until a few months in when it seemed like I was getting a more steady, consistent group of people attending.

I suppose my point is that I didn’t think of myself actually getting to know and making friends through the website, as I initially treated it as a business opportunity to show my company the advantages of reaching out to another audience and allowing us the chance to actually try more things for those said people. Now that I have actually attended to some events outside of my work with those meetup people, I feel more included in my own group. It’s strange, right? I wanted to take the chance of getting to know people though, and this was one way I figured would be most comfortable for me, and I’m definitely glad to be doing so.

On a more personal note, I’m taking another chance of getting to know about those friends as well as my coworkers’ and my boyfriend’s interests in order to get to know what other people are getting into. I wish to be open-minded about as much as I can find out and allow people to express themselves comfortably without feeling as if they will be judged. Really, this is an outlook I think everybody should live, but we don’t have much control over that.

Roll with what you can manage, right?

Things You’ll Never Catch Me Doing on Facebook

So true… I’m guilty of one thing on the list (connected to Twitter; however, I never use my Twitter so I think I’m safe haha). C’mon Facebookers, let’s be real here.

Adorably Caffeinated

 

Here’s the thing about my Facebook: I don’t really contribute to it anymore.

In college (when Facebook was new and cool instead of something that I can’t bring myself to get rid of) I would be writing on friends’ walls and commenting on photos constantly. I’d update my status once or twice (or 3 times, don’t judge) a day. Now, I barely update my status once a week. I use Twitter instead, to post my random thoughts, or photos, or links to articles. I use Facebook to stalk. Don’t judge, you know you do the same thing. When the Newsfeed came out, everyone was outraged. But then we saw the value. It was all right there, laid out in chronological order, ready to click on, every juicy morsel. When people added photos, when they changed their relationship status, every little thing they did, we knew immediately. We knew if…

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How to make a Watermelon Serving Bowl

Baaaahhh, summer is here and I want to eat this!! Nom!! (Apologies for the lack of posting, it’s move in week for me!)

Strawberry Pepper

Summer’s coming! Well for those of us living in the non-temperate Northern Hemisphere it is anyway. And with summer comes the bountiful fresh fruit and frequent summer barbecues. Usually when I go to a barbeque I’ll like to bring some sort of dish with substance, to show off the homemade veggie burgers and quiches, but sometimes, you just gotta be lazy. Let someone else do that work for you.

When that happens my go-to dish is often a fruit salad. Because they’re delicious and healthy and there’s almost nothing better than fresh fruit! And it’s really something you can’t have too much of.

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