You know when You have Thoughts and then those Thoughts keep going…

It’s one of those things I have started to wonder about, now that I’m getting into the second half of the first year of a serious relationship. You know, wonder about the future, wonder how long the giggly honeymoon phase lasts, wonder if this will really kick off or is something else going to come up, and wonder about that pesky L-word. Some people take the idea very seriously, while others just let the feelings and the time flow.

I usually consider myself as the latter choice, because I don’t believe allowing myself to stress/overthink emotions is something practical or even necessary to do. You feel what you feel and just go from there, right? On the flip side, I’m older now; any relationships/flings/romances/relations I had in the past were from a time where I was younger, less mature, less practical, less serious. I let by-gones be by-gones and I never held on to anything with serious intentions. I always told myself that if things didn’t work out, move on to something else.

I still think that for many things now, although I have learned to put more serious and focused work on things that matter NOW. My career attempts, for example, is a goal I feel very strongly towards, now that I have found a field I enjoy and desire to develop within. Quite frankly, I almost stumbled on the idea by sheer chance, but I wouldn’t change the moment for anything else. I also take living and caring for myself much more seriously; I have change my dietary menu (vegetarian), I have learned to shop and save with or without coupons (Aldi’s and Costco also helps), I have learned to take care of bills, charges, taxes, making appointment, tending to car maintenance, fixing things in the home, etc. I have learned to live like a proper adult and take responsibilities as expected, so in that aspect, I consider myself doing a job well done!

*pat on the back*

Back to my original thought, the whole relationship factor. This time, after some flops in the past, I took a different route based on advice from a friend: online dating.

Whoa.

Anyways, I figured the worst that could happen is… well, a lot of things honestly, but I went ahead and chanced it. After some trials and fails, I landed a rather likable male who was suited according to my interests (omg he knows how to make conversation, omg he has a real career, omg he pays his own bills and owns a car….), and 6+ months later, it appears to still be working out pretty successfully. I like this guy. A lot, probably.

So that L-word. I went around and ask some friends when they started dropping it to their significant others and the average result I got was 4-5 months into the relationship. I questioned my findings and pondered on people’s desire to say the word with the right meaning behind it. I was curious what made people make the change from like to love, and I listened to stories of newfound loves and tragic romances (typically not by choice). I, then, took a look at myself and what I had going on.

I didn’t really come to a solid conclusion on myself, but I know what I have going on is something special and quite frankly, rather dear to me. I like where things are going and I am just going to keep it at that.

I don’t always eat your food out of stress, but when I do…

It’s true, I’m not that great of a blogger. I get easily distracted, I tend to start something and not finish it, I find something more exciting, or I’ll just get a fantastic idea, then it’ll will just totally die on me like a dried up earthworm on your sidewalk in the middle of the summer.

Image stolen from here: http://www.itlookslikeitsopen.com/2011/07/catch-worm-man.html

The Horror!

However, today, I’m looking forward to things. For one, it is the Gregorian calendar’s official first day of spring. Granted, in Pittsburgh, it’s still in the 30s and will probably snow later, but the SUN IS OUT! There is a blue sky! It’s nice to look at from the inside of your warmer home… Anyways, with spring in mind, I’m looking forward to many things this year, such as:

1) Farmer’s Markets

2) Attempts of small gardening (I’m talking little cups on the windowsill)

3) Bike riding (Haven’t done this in over 10 years)

4) Zoo (Haven’t been to the zoo since I was in high school!)

5) Arts Festivals (technically the big one in Pittsburgh isn’t until June, but I’m still excited!

6) BEING OUTSIDE WITH NO WINTER COAT, SCARF, AND GLOVES

Isn’t this exciting?! April better start picking up the pace here and giving us some temperatures above the 50/60 degree mark, along with some flowers and bright colors to look at. Nobody wants this winter weather nonsense anymore, yeah?

(I was going to post a “winter blues” picture, but most of the searches led to odd, anime-styled fanart and babies. My point wasn’t going to get across.)

In other news, I shall be going to Boston for the first time in my life this weekend. Am I totally stoked? Yes. Granted, I do have to spend one day at the PAX convention (the manfriend’s biggest excitement: This is what I’m talking about). I’m not super knowledgeable about video games (I tried playing a demo of Dead Space 3, and the manfriend had to hold the controller with me in my hands and push the right buttons for me; I got so stressed out, I started eating his pizza.)

Image stolen from here: http://gifatron.com/tag/crying-while-eating/

Tears. Food. Swings. This is usually how I react.

The other days can be spent sight seeing, but I’m pretty sure everything we do will be pretty awesome. It’s gonna get weird.

Image borrowed from here: http://www.braco.net/boston-massachusetts

Look at the strikingly beautiful city.

As for the actual PAX, who knows. It’ll be nerdy and creepy, I’m sure. There will be a lot of loud noises, flashy lights, excellent & terrible cosplay, hot girls that never touched a controller in her life, and probably these guys:

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This guy knows what he’s doing

I’m feeling pretty good about life this year though. Even if everything doesn’t work out completely, I’m confident that things WILL come together in the end. There’s something else happening today, but I’m not going to talk about it until I get a result out of it. I try not to be all superstitious, but I’m always afraid I’ll jinx myself. Either way, I’m staying confident and keeping my head up.

‘Til the next time, kids!

The Space

I’ve been working on the same easy project for months because either one, I didn’t have enough time to finish it in one go, or two, I was just simply never home. I live in a duplex with another friend and since my bedroom is entirely too small for me to do anything in it, I decided to make use of the basement by transforming it into a craft work station. Since it’s an older home with very little upkeep, there isn’t a whole lot I can do to begin with without having to spend money on things I obviously wouldn’t get to keep (since I’m renting), I decided to just work with what I had on hand.

When I first encountered this to do business

When I first encountered this to do business

P.S. All pictures are pretty awful. I have an iPhone with a slight mark in the camera lens, bear with me.

There are a set of poorly done shelves against the wall, which aren’t really fixable unless I take the whole thing apart and rebuild it, which in reality, if I hopefully only stay in this place for one more year, it’s not really worth the trouble. It does hold my crafts supplies and other materials well enough though, since I don’t have anything particularly heavy. I did start repainting the shelves with the paint that was already there, just to make it bearable to look at. There is an additional cupboard in the back-end of the section, which I will also repaint when it’s not negative degrees down there (C’mon spring!)

This is the up close, painted versus awful

This is the up close, painted versus awful

On top of all that, I got some free rugs from the boy, who had them leftover, and I got a sturdy small desk for $5 at the Construction Junction warehouse! All in all, working with what I had on hand has been going pretty smoothly for an amateur work station and definitely gives me better ideas for future spaces when I move. The best and worst part of what I ended up doing the desk made me ridiculously happy, and other people weren’t impressed. I came across some Hard Cover Mod Podge that is used for furniture, and decided ‘Why not just redo the surface of the desk with book pages and color pictures of inspirational things?’ I got some super cheap old books for a couple bucks at the PGH Creative Reuse Center and begun my project by tearing out pages after pages of things I liked.

Rip, rip, glue, rip

Rip, rip, glue, rip

This part took the longest because to apply the Mod Podge, it was recommended to do at least 5 layers with a 15-20 min break between each, wiped, sandpaper with super fine grit, wipe again, steel wool down, and wipe again. I finally did all of this last night, and it did take me a few hours to finish it up (as well as finishing BBC’s The Office Xmas special so I could move on with my life past Tim and Dawn). I’m pretty satisfied with the end results, especially for my first real desk I was able to play around with. Obviously in the future, I will look into getting a better looking one that has drawers, but I foresee this desk having a special place in my heart for quite some time.

Vintage finished Up close

 

I look forward to seeing what creations come out of this.

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Chances

It’s 2013 and honestly, I feel as if I have a lot of things to look forward to. This is the year that I wish to make an advancement in my company and hopefully end up with a new position that is truly worth working for. I am eternally grateful for the opportunities that my current position and location allows me to take advantage of, and even more so grateful for the support I receive. This is a company I would love to grow and develop my skills over a long run, and hopefully this will lead to greater things down the road.

It is a little strange, in that I would love to stay in my position and do the things I am doing, but since it’s very little money,

Write something good that happened to you every day

Write something good that happened to you every day

I know that I must move on further in order to make anything of myself. We live in the times where if you don’t have any internal connections and/or prove your worth by killing yourself to exhaustion, you better start liking the change in your pockets and the cheap ways to everything (which, admittedly, are neat to find when it comes by).

However, this isn’t a post about jobs or my company in particular, this is just a post about life and making the most of it. When a new year comes, it’s always exciting to think about the possibilities that will come your way. Will you take the chance or will you pass it up for something else?

Last year, I took a business-oriented purpose and started a MeetUp group in order to attract a larger audience of people in order to increase attendance for my work’s programs. Now, MeetUp is a website whose intentions are to allow people to meet and hang out based on similar interests, and make friends in an alternative way (via internet). It’s not exactly uncommon for people with more business intentions to take advantage of this though, as you are generally

giving people an opportunity to explore something new (and my promoted programs are typically free, so everybody wins), but it somewhat takes away from the social aspects of the group. I didn’t really explore the possibilities of really getting to know people in my group until a few months in when it seemed like I was getting a more steady, consistent group of people attending.

I suppose my point is that I didn’t think of myself actually getting to know and making friends through the website, as I initially treated it as a business opportunity to show my company the advantages of reaching out to another audience and allowing us the chance to actually try more things for those said people. Now that I have actually attended to some events outside of my work with those meetup people, I feel more included in my own group. It’s strange, right? I wanted to take the chance of getting to know people though, and this was one way I figured would be most comfortable for me, and I’m definitely glad to be doing so.

On a more personal note, I’m taking another chance of getting to know about those friends as well as my coworkers’ and my boyfriend’s interests in order to get to know what other people are getting into. I wish to be open-minded about as much as I can find out and allow people to express themselves comfortably without feeling as if they will be judged. Really, this is an outlook I think everybody should live, but we don’t have much control over that.

Roll with what you can manage, right?

There’s so many ways to attach “Bro” to something: Brobama, Bronasaurus Rex. Brotato Chip…

I confess.

It’s been a very long time since I have done any blog postings on this website. I went through the whole sch-deal of being a standard 20-something girl: Getting involved in my job, getting a boyfriend, getting into new side activities, doing additional programs, having a sort-of-there social life, etc etc. Don’t get me wrong, everything has been super lovely and exciting. I still seem some interesting hurdles ahead of me that will prove my ambition to get somewhere with success (varying on my energy with correlates with my coffee intake). I started a Crafters group on a social website called MeetUp.com to meet and craft with people in my area. I’m applying for a higher position in my company and I have graduate school to look into in my future (after I take the GRE’s, then apply, then try to get some scholarships…). I don’t want to forget about this though!

I’m just going to throw out a couple key thoughts of things that have been running in my brain. Small exercises that will lead to larger things.

1) “Portlandia”

I’ve never been so conflicted on my liking for a television show. Mind you, I don’t even have any form of cable at my home (I depend on people’s Netflix when I visit or DVD rentals at work) and yet, I came across this show somehow. It spoke many things, mostly confusing feelings and uncomfortable laughter at understanding (usually some of, and occasionally most of) the jokes. They recently released a “Welcome to Portlandia” guide book (check your new non-fiction titles at your local library *winks*), which I, of course, checked out. When I read it, I will possibly write more about it.

2) Libraries

They’re awesome, right? I work in one and it’s awesome. I never loved going to work as much as this job. I’m currently looking to advance my position while looking into graduate school for library science (but specifically for “archival studies”), so my argument is a bit biased. However, they’re useful. They got all sorts of free stuff for rentals (books, movies, audio books, cds, comics, mangas, reference, health books, children’s stuff, video games, etc etc). Unless you live in an unfortunately tiny, desolated are where the nearest library is about 20 miles east of the white barn on your right, I highly suggest you should take advantage of your local spot. There’s probably a coffee shop nearby, so it’s like a double whammy of wins. I like wins.

3) Books for Young Adult/Teens

Admittedly, I generally dislike most “teen reads.” They’re usually overly emotional, heavily clique-y, typically take place in high school (honestly some of my less than favorable years of living), and at times, a little too uneducated. However, I have come across some unusual gems as of late. Books with a bit more realism, characters that are strangely more believable (and relatable?!), and doesn’t take place in the back of the movie theater or your parent’s basement! Amazing, right? They’re quick reads to boot. 

4) Do-It-Yourself. DIY. Seriously, just make it.

In the past year, I’ve picked up on the crafting trend. Yes, I have my times of laziness and “yeah whatever, I’ll just buy it cheap somewhere” (believe, it’s never really cheap), as well as stare listlessly at etsy/pinterest/craftster/thisiswhyimbroke/etc for ideas, then immediately list those other things I need to do in my head.

This is the part where I get a beer and watch Harvey Birdman, Attorney at Law. If you haven’t watched this in Cartoon Network’s Adult Swim’s glory days, you’re missing out bad

Anyways, I have my basement halfway turned into a workshop AND I have also started a crafts program at work for adults to get together with their genius ideas. There are good and bad days, naturally; I consider it a work in progress. I’ve made things I’m pretty happy with and things I know I could have done better. But I’m still making them.

5) MeetUp.com

This website was a big turning point for me. It introduced me to additional ways to reach out to people based on interests and events, but it also showed me how flaky people can be, even online where the website gives you the option of saying Yes or No to any event that has ever been created and you have zero obligation to attend (so saying “yes” out of sheer politeness or laziness (??) is just wasting everyone’s time, including your own). End rant. It’s an interesting website. I gave the create-a-group option a shot (because it let you do a 50% off for the start up price), but I’m not sure if I see it going past the 6 months. I certainly learned a lot in reaching out to people though and how to connect on interests.

6) Write Something Happy Every Day

There are two things I make myself do every day before bed. Write on a slip of paper about something good that happened that day and put it in a jar, then write in my trendy-looking daily log about what happened that day. One reason is motivation. It makes me want to write something good on that damn piece of paper so I can reflect on it at the end of the year, and be all like “Heck yeah, I was awesome this year.” 

The other reason is that I really do have terrible memory. I just simply forget things instantly that I have to get in the habit of writing down ideas, lists, events, dates, etc. to keep anything in mind. I used to try to update my Google calendar for upcoming events, but it became an ordeal so I really just have been trusting my brain to keep things on the ball.

7)  Vegetarian Lifestyle

In a little over a month, I would have been living the veggiesaurus lifestyle for a year. Now, I have eaten seafood here and there, especially considering I just went into the vegheads cold turkey. I didn’t ween or go through my colored meats like baby chicks.

I just stopped altogether. It was interesting. I learned to substitute other things and in general, I just learned to eat healthier. I pretty much drop all of the fast food and rarely eat out much because I’ve been enjoying cooking at home and trying to make new things. Granted, my lifestyle is a bit of a rarity among friends and I prove to be a difficult person to please when out to eat (if the restaurant doesn’t even offer any seafood options, they’re doing it wrong to begin with). On the flip side, the veggiesauruses in the city have proved to be numerable and the options of places to eat out has substantially increased in recent years. I’m really not that difficult, honestly. I eat what the “normies” eat, just take the meat out of it. No harm done.

8) Music- Like the dubstep, house, rave kind

My music tastes haven’t really changed, I just haven’t listened to it as much as I used to. I still enjoy a show here and there, and I play stuff in the card. However, now that I stopped downloading AND buying music altogether, I just listen to whatever I already have on hand, and then do the Spotify/Pandora/WTFSILTN (http://whatthefuckshouldilistentonow.com/) for further interest. However, I have noticed an increase of the dubstep/house music creeping in my clicking around. It’s interesting and keeps me moving, but is it considered real music? I don’t have a real answer to that.

9) Moving

Last year, I moved into a cheap duplex with a college friend. We’re your standard 20-something female roommates who are trying to figure out what’s worth living for, adapting to real world policies, and making a name for ourselves (in whatever format). We have different interests, ambitions, views, habits, and everything else, but we manage to be decent roommates to each other. And seriously, the place is a goldmine for cheap living. it was an exciting time and it was the first I really, REALLY felt I was going on my own.

Ermagherd, I can decorate however I want? I don’t need stupid movie poster, I’ll paint something! Ikea bookshelves! Crockpots! Decorated washi-styled tape to put on the edges of shelves to make them look awesome?! You got it!

Don’t judge me.

10) Blogs

I still read some randomly. Some are funny, some are inspiring, some are creative, and unfortunately, some are dull. I’m certain this falls under the “dull, stupid, waste-of-my-time, omg-get-a-life category, but who cares? I enjoy it enough. 

Life update. Check.

Things You’ll Never Catch Me Doing on Facebook

So true… I’m guilty of one thing on the list (connected to Twitter; however, I never use my Twitter so I think I’m safe haha). C’mon Facebookers, let’s be real here.

Adorably Caffeinated

 

Here’s the thing about my Facebook: I don’t really contribute to it anymore.

In college (when Facebook was new and cool instead of something that I can’t bring myself to get rid of) I would be writing on friends’ walls and commenting on photos constantly. I’d update my status once or twice (or 3 times, don’t judge) a day. Now, I barely update my status once a week. I use Twitter instead, to post my random thoughts, or photos, or links to articles. I use Facebook to stalk. Don’t judge, you know you do the same thing. When the Newsfeed came out, everyone was outraged. But then we saw the value. It was all right there, laid out in chronological order, ready to click on, every juicy morsel. When people added photos, when they changed their relationship status, every little thing they did, we knew immediately. We knew if…

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How to make a Watermelon Serving Bowl

Baaaahhh, summer is here and I want to eat this!! Nom!! (Apologies for the lack of posting, it’s move in week for me!)

Strawberry Pepper

Summer’s coming! Well for those of us living in the non-temperate Northern Hemisphere it is anyway. And with summer comes the bountiful fresh fruit and frequent summer barbecues. Usually when I go to a barbeque I’ll like to bring some sort of dish with substance, to show off the homemade veggie burgers and quiches, but sometimes, you just gotta be lazy. Let someone else do that work for you.

When that happens my go-to dish is often a fruit salad. Because they’re delicious and healthy and there’s almost nothing better than fresh fruit! And it’s really something you can’t have too much of.

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